Broken No More is my journey of breaking through dissociative amnesia hiding severe child abuse, how it affected my life, and the ways I achieved deep healing.
Sandi Rytting, a middle-aged mother of five, has overcome the anxiety and depression that have plagued her life to discover peace and happiness until her attacks of paralysis return with a vengeance that puts her in a wheelchair within weeks. Doctors can’t find the cause while her body continues to deteriorate, leaving her bedridden and dying while her youngest children are sent to live with other family. Fighting against the grim prognosis of experts, Sandi uses alternative care practices and her faith in God to regain her ability to walk and restore her health.
With better health than she’s had in decades, Sandi begins an internal journey that brings her to the brink of a different type of death when she breaks through dissociative amnesia hiding child abuse. As flashbacks pull out new memories Sandi discovers not only severe child sexual abuse, but ritual abuse and torture that shred her religion, her faith in God, and even her personality. Piece by piece, Sandi must rebuild her past, her present, and create a healthy future full of possibility until in the end, she becomes Broken No More.
Constantly feeling anxious or angry, inability to trust, and unhealthy relationships are just a few of the things survivors of abuse struggle with every day. Underlying it all is a feeling of hopelessness that life will always be this way. Breaking that myth is my life’s work. You will find hope and practical steps whether you are reading my memoir, Broken No More, looking at my blogs, or going through my coaching programs or workshops. Healing is possible no matter how bad your abuse was or how messed up you feel your life is right now. Begin by believing healing is possible for you.